Unit 6 integral Assessment

As I closed my eyes and tried to rest my mind, at first it was alittle difficult, because other thoughts would enter my mind,after about 5 min I was able to calm down enough to let my mind rest ant become still. I started to think about the 4 aspects of life. I found my self wanting to focus more on the interpersonal aspects of my life. The interpersonal aspects reflects on community, family and personal. As I thought more Ifelt the my relationship with my family was okay, as well as my community, so that leave personal. When I say personal, I am referring to me (myself). I feel that I need to work on me as a whole. Lately I realize that my stress levels are very high, work and school are both very demanding, I feel as If I'm pushed to the limit.My work hours/ and work load has increased, ( 1 co-worker short)so by the time I get home, tend to family needs and try to sit still  and focus on school my mind and body are drained. My approach to fix this is to talk to my supervisor to let him know that the work load, is become to be to much for me, I know we have someone  coming to assist us soon, but if I as least tell them know what's happening to me mentally and physically, than maybe  help will  get to our department soon. This aspect is the only aspect I'm focusing on at this time, because if  I can regain my mental and physcial strength , than I will no longer feel like I'm working against myself.Making me better, work better and even though family and community was okay, They too will be better, because a healthy mind is a healthy body.

Unit 5 Subtle mind

This week's exercise was a little difficult for me. In the beginning I was able to focus on my breathing, but as the excerise continued I found it hard to free my mind and allow it to reach a calm-abiding state.
I found my mind wondering on various things, like all the things I need to get done before I go to bed, the list of things I have to get completed tomorrow at work, it seems to be everywhere, but calm-abiding.
Usually the ocean sounds relaxes me and allow me to release what ever is on my mind, but not this time, I realize this exercise is suppose to get easier with practice, I guess today wasn't the day for calm-abiding.

Love and Kindness

This exercise was very relaxing for me. I love the beach and listening to the waves come to shore was very relaxing. It allowed me to step away from the stress of daily livig and be free. I could visulize my self sitting on the beach with my eyes close and relaxing. When asked t think of a love one suffering . at first I felt the stress thinking/knowning that someone I care about is suffering, But then I places that love one there on the beach with me  so that they could see beautiful scenery exhale and relax. Visualizing a stranger suffering was hard to do there are so many people suffering due to the economy losing jobs, homes, everything, was harder for me to concentrate on being relaxed. Trying to  show love and kindness to someone that doesn't like me, was a hard to concentrate, and relax, because it bother me if someone doesn't like me.